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Chapter 8 - I don't want to not be by your side [Chishiya x Reader]
You woke to Chishiya still in the room with you, sitting on a chair next to your bed.
"You were not waking up. I almost thought you were dead if it wasn't for how much you were snoring."
He even had the nerve to remain serious after saying that, leaving you to ponder whether he was actually joking or not. If your pounding headache would let you lift your head more than a couple of centimeters, you would had strangled him, although now that you thought about it, it would take a lot more than that and your body, so far, remained non-responsive.
"Close the courtains." You struggled to say, still trying to fully wake up. The light was hurting your eyes.
He tilted his head to one side, eyebrows raised, but complied. You whispered a soft "thank you", while standing up until you were seated, and he nodded in return.
What was he still doing here? You remembered, partially, that he had taken you to your room. But had he been watching you sleep the whole night? Creepy. And were you really snoring? You really hoped it was just his dry sense of humor.
"You didn't sleep?" Maybe he had slept on a chair, like that night when it was just the two of you in that family apartment, but you didn't really understand why he would go through the pain of being uncomfortable for you.
"I did." He pointed behind you. You turned around and saw that your pillows had been placed as a sort ofā¦ Wall? Barrier? Behind you, dividing the bed in two.
So.
You had slept in the same bed as Chishiya.
The news would have been the most exciting thing to ever happen to you if you were not mad at him still. Despite that, it felt like there was something that you could only describe as the fluttering of wings of thousands of tiny insects (you called them wasps, butterflies would be much more delicate) in your stomach.
"Why have you stayed?"
"You insisted you absolutely refused to sleep on your side. I feared that, when I would leave the room, you would die by choking on your own vomit just to spite me."
"As if you cared.", you wanted to say. Only he did care, but because his plan wouldn't work otherwise. That was the only reason, or so you wanted to think. Believing anything else had proven to be too painful.
"You looked beautiful yesterday"
"What?"
Your reaction was so natural, so organic. Did he just call you beautiful? The wasps returned. But this time someone had kicked their nest and they were buzzing, angry like never before. You were gaping like a fish, unsure of what to say.
"I said you looked beautiful yesterday."
"I heard you."
"Then?"
What did he mean THEN?
"What does that mean?"
"You looked subjectively beautiful."
You still couldn't believe it. Your cheeks, ears and entire face were burning. You didn't know what to say. He clearly didn't think too much about it. You scrutinized his face, trying to discover what was going on behind those beautiful, dreamy eyes. Damn it. You had fallen for him again. Hard. Had you ever stopped, though? You found yourself smiling like a little kid, from ear to ear and had to remind yourself you were supposed to be mad.
"Thank you?" You meant to just say it, which as much dignity as you could gather, but it came out more like a question. Maybe you were alucinating. Maybe you were still drunk! Someone had spiked your drink! That must be it.
Your heart twisted, and turned. And felt like it was beaten to a bloody pulp.
You couldn't help but keep smiling, even though you tried really, really hard not to. Because what he said was sweet. Because you liked him, no matter how much you tried to deny it. Because he was the closest thing to home for you. Because something deep inside you was telling you to run, and instead, you were tying yourself harder. You knew this was a game that was lost before it even started, but you were still coming back to play. That last thought made you sad. You knew something had to be done about your feelings, because you were clearly watering a dead flower, and it was taking its toll on you.
"Be careful, or I might think you are starting to care about me." You whispered.
"I try not to care about anyone."
There he was again.
"You care a bit. Otherwise you wouldn't have spent the night here."
"I told you, I didn't want you to die asphyxiated."
"All I can hear is how much you care."
He had a half-smile on his face. You were not smiling anymore.
"Not really."
"Would it kill you to just admit it?"
He gave the impression of being taken aback by the intensity of your words, probably expecting you to keep the banter going. But if he was surprised, that didn't last for more than a few seconds.
"Admit what?"
"Nothing."
You looked at each other. You had a knot in your throat that would be there no matter how much you tried getting rid of it. You only had held hands twice, why were you already feeling like this? You probably were an awful person in another life, because this seemed like a cruel joke the world, God, or whichever ominous entity was playing on you.
"I'm sorry. I think I have relied on you a bit too much ever since I met you."
"I agree."
You took the hit without, hopefully, revealing too much of what you were feeling. This felt too much like a breakup and you were not even an item.
You nodded.
He nodded.
The silence was just too painful. Everything about your entire infatuation was.
"I think you should go."
#chishiya x fem!reader#chishiya x reader#chishiya fanfic#chishiya angst#chishiya#aib chishiya#chishiya aib#chishiya alice in borderland#chishiya fic#chishiya fluff#chishiya shuntaro#chishiya x you#chishiya x y/n#shuntaro chishiya#this one made me so sad to write :(#the song is also heartbreaking#Spotify#as much as you want
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Been getting into the danny phantom fandom andā¦.
Listen I love ghost king danny stuff but
This shit is making my cry I hate whoever made this playlist
with.
a.
PASSION
Youāre great at making playlists but holy fuck itās like watching the saddest animations ever in my head. mentally fucked me up bc a playlist should NOT be able to do this
#/gen but also not..#itās like watching ALL the saddest annamatics in my head#WHY ARE THEY ALL SO SAD GIVE MY BOY A BREAKššš#EVERY ONE OF THESE SONGS ARE PLAYING A 4 K ANIMATION AND THEIR ALL SO SAD AND HEARTBREAKING I CANR EITH THIS PLAYLIST#ITS SO CLEARLY VISABLE WITH THESE SONGS I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THEIR ABOUT AND I HATE ITTT#WHY AM I GETTING EMOTIONAL DAMAGE FROM A FANDOM AU PLAYLIST THIS SHOULDNT BE HAPPENINGššš#I love you for putting these songs together they are so clearly him but like.#count your days#istg#Iām gonna cry#I canāt with these ANGST ASS FANDOMSšš#fuck you#but also I love that you made it but still fuck you#danny phantom#ghost king danny#ghost king au#ghost king phantom#danny fenton#ššš
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i'd like to mean it when I say I'm over you but that's still not true and I'm still so blue ā«
taking pictures of her made me feel so bad šš
#*elidora indigo#<3#show us your sims#ts4#ts4 cas#sims 4#sims 4 cas#create a sim#simblr#ive been wanting to make a sim based on heartbreak#</3#also i realized the first line of this song#'i try to live in black and white but im so blue'#and shes literally wearing black and white š#that was not on purpose i picked the song AFTER making her but thats so funny
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Valentino Rossi & Marc MƔrquez
[ happy (belated) 9 year anniversary to sepang 2015 aka the one weekend everything went wrong, everything changed and that still haunts motogp to this day <3 ]
history of man by maisie peters
#soo we were talkinh about possible rosquez narratives in sepang i heard?? *insert that bear picture* bonjour š#*technically* the anniversary was last weekend already on oct 25thā¦but the sepang weekend is now and the edit wasnāt resdy sooo#:)))#āiām sure there was heartbreak in the world of motogpāā¦āso valentino blamed marcāā¦.āvalentino started the war yet valentino hates marcāā¦.#yeahā¦.yeahh#also valeās evil spirit entered ae and fucked with the audio and now the one part sounds like āhis program is to make me lose..ā#which is basically what he said anyway but now the text is all fucked up!!!#get out of my computer evil vale spirit!!!!#also. if the texts donāt exactly line up and you see any glitches. look past it bestie. please. i went through PAIN to render this#and tumblr fucked the quality left and right and centerā¦why. why. š¤ #what if i justāā ļø#anywhoooooo#btw. is is. is it normal to still get brainworms about them. just. asking for a friend. because. maybe that friend hears a song sooometimes#and is thinking is like ohmygod thatās rosquez#and then she has the urge to make an edit on her fuckass old laptop with a crackef after effects that doesnāt play audios n lags like crazy#and she will HATE the edit but then think fuck it we ball and hits post with zero regards for the people who will have to the see it#no yeah i should talk to her yeah i agree mhm#motogp#marc marquez#valentino rossi#rosquez#rosquez edit#s.edits
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Thinking about the song "Ship in Port" by Radical Face and clones
Thinking about the line "Farewell to the chains we were born into" and what that can mean for the clones
Thinking about how "But I have always stayed in place/Under that old illusion that it's safe" could equally describe Hunter, Echo, and (s1+2) Crosshair's complete opposite approaches to the Empire and post-war life.
The way Crosshair clings to his identity as a soldier of the Empire
And Echo as a soldier of the Republic
But Hunter puts his identity as a soldier behind him
Crosshair fights for the Empire to gain purpose
Echo fights against the Empire to save his brothers
And Hunter decides the Empire is too strong to even try to oppose
"A ship in port is a safer one"
"but it's not the reason it was made"
"So forgive me if I wander off"
"And forgive me more if I just stay"
Thinking about what The Bad Batch could have been if it had more fully explored the differences between those ideologies
(Thinking about what The Bad Batch could have been if it had dedicated more screen time to the 'reg' clones within the Empire and the underground network's fight to free them , instead of just sidelining Echo and Rex for a hypothetical clone rebellion show we might never get)
#i have lots of thoughts and many draft posts in which i've been struggling to figure out how to word those thoughts#tbb had SO much potential#it was so close!#it really could have been on par with Andor if it has just tried#i feel like i'm projecting these themes that aren't really there#the pieces are there the show just didn't focus on them#i considered saying hunter 'hides from the empire to protect his family' but that never included crosshair just omega#so that felt like giving him too much credit#ignore the music video i just really love the acoustic version bc MMM that viol!#the rest of the lyrics totally fit for clones of this era too btw#like SO WELL ugh#if i had the time resources and attention span I'd make a music video#maybe someday...#(lol i have waay too many projects stuck in my brain and also the new semester started and i'm already so behind rip)#while we're on the subject of radical face and clones#āalways goldā is THE perfect heartbreaking Kix song!#tbb#tbb analysis#sw tcw#tbb echo#tbb hunter#tbb crosshair#arc trooper echo#the clones#radical face#bardic musings#sorry i didn't credit the gifs#this has been in my drafts since long before i knew people care about that and i can't find where i found them from#just know the shitty ones are the ones i made lol
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I just think more people should know this<3 It's makes a lot of sense and although Patrochilles sounds much better Achicleos is painfully beautiful š¤
#patrochilles#patroclus#the song of achilles#achilles#tsoa madeline miller#its not mine i found it in Pinterest#i just feel it's accurate#its also beautiful#and heartbreaking#achilles and patroclus
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klaine + heartbreak feels so good by fall out boy
@giftober 2024 | day 1: broken
#giftober2024#gleesource#my stuff#my edit#fobklaine#kurt hummel#blaine anderson#glee#gleeedit#kehedit#bdaedit#klaineedit#klaine#kurthummeledit#blaineandersonedit#song: heartbreak feels so good#episode: the break up#episode: jagged little tapestry#song: itās too late#episode: thanksgiving#song: come what may#episode: girls (and boys) on film#episode: loser like me#episode: new new york#episode: the hurt locker pt 2#song: it mustāve been love#trade baby queues for wide eyed browns#this was an idea iāve had for awhile#so iām glad i got to finally implement it#also happy giftober!!!!
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really slay of jinx and ekko to ALWAYS have the best episodes. they get minimal screentime together but they eat every time
#I love The Scene from episode 8 an obscene amount but i do have to be objective#and whole episode wise the timebomb episodes have made me crazier#they are so heartbreaking#arcane#timebomb#also their songs are always among the best on the soundtrack
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Oh my god it's The Alchemy day I have SO many thoughts about this song so I'm gonna try and condense them.
First of all, the song starts and ends with "This happens once every few lifetimes," which is a statement filled to the BRIM with irony, in my view. The entire album up to this point has been concerned with two romances, both of which Taylor states she felt were destined and fated and "storybook" in their own ways. The entirety of TTPD is exploring how these fated, destined, storybook romances could actually crumble, and with it, her faith and belief in the existence of fate and destiny and storybook love.
But THEN... almost at the end of the standard run of the album, Taylor states that she's getting back from recovering from this tragedy - "I'm back / The hospital was a drag / Worst sleep that I ever had". She gets back from the messy process of healing from the events described on the album, and despite everything finds herself falling in love again.
This is why the title is significant, too. Alchemy is the pseudoscience of making a material into something more valuable. And this reflects the emotional process of Taylor falling in love again - she felt like the past two tragedies took the shine off of everything, killed her belief that love could ever work. But then, despite everything, she falls in love again and the normal, even tragic world she lived in before is transformed into something golden.
And then the first line repeats again, to reflect the cyclical nature of what she has experienced. Obviously, "this" doesn't happen once every few lifetimes, it's happened twice before on the album and is happening again in this song. She's falling in love, she's finding something beautiful and fated, and she can't help but find it gorgeous and meaningful, even if she's been shown again and again that she might be proven wrong in the end. And it feels so special that even if it's obvious that it isn't a once-in-a-lifetime experience, it feels that rare and that precious.
In this song, love is the alchemy, the process of turning normalcy into meaning and beauty, and she can't help it.
#GOD this song is so good#taylor swift#ttpd#the alchemy#shh gilly#don't even get me started on the way she obscures the muse on this song too like#we see all the football references but also these echoes of the past two relationships as well#and you can't help but see the darkness in that#that these two terrible tragedies reflect in the new#but that's part of the alchemy too#she sees the old in the new but despite all that she can't help but fall in love again#the alchemy transforms her sadness and heartbreak into something valuable#which is a theme that also comes up again in the manuscript btw#ttpdminutes
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i carry you in my heart forever.
user naumin/radiator hospital/user stolenchapstick/user jb-blunk/mitski
#.txt#web weaving#on heartbreak#on friendship#web weave#mitski#the frost#radiator hospital#our song#hi guys. im feeling particularly strongly tonight. new mitski album got me a bit worse.#also like im like on a timer of 'gets worse and is only reset by talking to him' but this time im trying not to i guess...#he can alwats message me first though i dont mind ^_^ it would drive me crazy tho but i am already crazy so#dels#srry if this ones not super cohesive idk
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daniel larusso & terry silver / the smallest man who ever lived
#daniel larusso#cobra kai#terry silver#the karate kid 3#tkk3#the karate kid#giddy up girls it's hurt/no comfort o'clock#i don't even like the first half of this song but goddamn... the second half just grabbed me and wouldn't let go#and said 'this is about terry and daniel'#everything about daniel's reaction to silver in ck season 4&5 is just so heartbreaking to me. the anger. the grief. the guilt.#the absolute terror in his face. the unspoken implications. it's all so heavy to me. the sauna scene alone... jesus christ#i have so many feelings about tkk3#terry silver i will rip out your blood vessels with my bare hands#the smallest man who ever lived#pinkgrapefloyd#pinkgrapefloydedit#also i'm sorry the ck screencaps are so much worse than the tkk ones. these were the best ones i could find#web weaving
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there's a song that reminds me so much of harmony in the twilight hour... big star by lorde š„¹ i've always loved it but i love it even more now that i've read your story. ilysm !!
help this song was so good, im literally sitting in the laboratory iām working at with literal tears in my eyes š thank you for this nonnie ! š„¹ and i especially love the lines bc itās so perfect for tojiynās tragic tale (and the fact that mc died in winter! ššš):
ābut every perfect summerās gotta take its flight, iāll still watch you run through the winter light.ā
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i could just imagine toji going back to that port they used to go to in yokohama, a year after the mcās death. he does everything he wanted to do with the mc when he still believed sheād get better: heāll stroll down that boardwalk, heāll buy two ice cream sandwiches (one for him, and one for you), heāll ride the ferris wheel because the harbor recently opened a small amusement park, and heāll watch the open sea wondering if you were right there next to him in spirit as the car reaches the top.
of course, heāll take lots of pictures. thatās what you would have wanted, after all.
and by dayās end, toji will retrieve your ashes from the car and heāll sit on the edge of the harborās boardwalk, your urn next to him as he tells you what heās been up to this past year ā how he went to your second honeymoon alone, the one you never got to go to, because you would have wanted that for him, how he kept everything in your home the way it is, how he took in that stray cat he always used to catch you feeding even when you were wheelchair-ridden as you neared the end of your life ā he tells you everything, picturing your head thrown back in joyful laughter when he forces himself to crack jokes every now and then.
as the last sliver of daylight appears on the horizon, he knows itās time, so he picks up your urn, sliding the lid open. he takes a deep breath then he ultimately casts your ashes into the sea as per your final wishes. he tearfully watches the wind pick up what remains of the love of his life, the same breeze gently settling you down onto your bed of sapphire waves.
he never remarries.
#āletters to ei.āļø#toji fushiguro angst#toji fushiguro x reader angst#okok im sorry for the angst please i couldnāt stop myself#ALSO THE SONG MADE ME CRY JEEZ GOOD CHOICE#iām here writing like a man POSSESSED#why is it that whenever i work overtime i always have these heartbreaking scenarios running through my head#ššš#anyway thank you for the ask nonnie !! š«¶š»
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not me listening to SNOWFLAKES on loop cuz it's low-key my favorite p4 song and realizing the lyrics like perfectly encompass yu's feelings about inaba and his friends and having to leave.
LOOK AT THIS SHIT. UGHHHHHH. THE PAIN OF HAVING MEDIA COMPREHENSION SKILLS,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
#puppy rambles#persona 4#p4#yu narukami#investigation team#literally only the first two lines are purely about winter-#the rest of it is yu's feelings about having to leave his friends and how much he loves it in inaba#:((( /pos#the āthis friendship it was built to last lineā is what really gets me tbh. and the ātreasured placeā which is obviously inaba#possibly the junes food court specifically#also similarly heartbeatā heartbreak is seemingly meant to be reflecting yu's feelings about adachi being the killer#idk how your affection fits into this at all if it does#not overworld songs but reach out to the truth is just about p4's themes. same with pursuing my true self#and i assume shadow world but idk the lyrics#heaven is nanako's feelings after her mom's death. being alone so often and whatnot#and time to make history is. there i guess? it's good but i don't think it really reflects a lot of stuff in its lyrics-#i prefer reach out to the truth cuz of that. and just cuz it bops esp the second half in the reincarnation version#there might be something i'm missing with it and your affection though the lyrics don't really feel like they fit but. might be missing smth#admittedly not always great at more implied stuff. autism š
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a baby
#vash the stampede#trigun#I saw one mention of trigun stampede and immediately it was time to rewatch trigun 1998#it's still so good#who ever said vash was the original babygirl was so correct#babygirl#I must've last watched it around ten years ago and I totally forgot it's the one fucking season#TRULY HEARTBREAKING#my GOD#fma03 already destroyed me why did I get back into trigun#anyway I binged all of trigun stampede and WOW he is pathetic I love him#just completely :c#I am so depressed that the next season is like two years away but goddamn I am excited for Millie#also I'm sorry but I'm losing my mind over the theme song and post credits song for tristampede WHY ARE THEY SO GOOD#injecting them into my veins#although 98 theme song is so good too#anime#fan art#his hair is WOW difficult#not a fan honestly but I struggled harder with the OG haircut so this is it#sketch#vash#trigun stampede
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modern au zosan thoughts to nina nesbittās the best you had
i donāt know if iām gonna flip the pronouns but maybe sanji is bisexual? so itās post break up and sanji is with a new girl. itās only three weeks but why does sanji look so happy. why does he look so happy, so, so soon. they were together for six years. six years, and three weeks was all it took for sanji to be posting about his new girlfriend, happy and wonderful, and soft and gorgeous in ways zoro isnāt.
is that why he broke up with him? because zoro canāt be soft in the way he needs softness, because zoro canāt love the way sanji needs to be loved? because god knows sanji was loved, zoro aches for him with his mind and soul now, his body unable to maintain the rigid form instilled into him over years of training as a swordsman, the values of maintaining his inner strength wavering, and he cannot breathe.
(he pulled himself up. but he couldnāt breathe)
sanji needs words, and zoro was a man of action. there was never a thing sanji needed or wanted that was not done. and sanji, despite having the same love language when it comes to being a giver, really, really needed words when it was his time to receive. and zoro tried. he did, but sometimes trying isnāt enough, he supposes. if it were, sanji would still be with him.
zoro tries not to keep up with sanjiās social media, heās doing a good job at no contact (a man with few words ought to be, right? itās not, zoro aches. he looks at every corner hoping itās sanji coming to pick him up because he got lost again, he looks at every aisle in the grocery store they frequented, he aches in ways when his friends obviously split their time between sanji and zoro). and he wants to move on, but sanjiās social media is the only way he can keep tabs on him. he just wants to know if heās okay! and if a stab to the heart whenever he sees her pretty brown locks that fall down her shoulders, well that is the price he must pay for playing games he should no longer be allowed to play.
when heās staring at the ceiling during lonely nights, angry and malicious and so, so hateful, he thinks viciously that at least she wonāt be able to hold him down like zoro is able to. sanji liked it so much when zoro held his precious arms captive above his head, when his lips would trail from his ears to his throat and back to his ears and instruct to keep his hands right there for me baby, donāt move, and sanji would huff and puff but his hands would never move. not even as zoro glides lower and lower, leaving a trail of bruises, purple pink in the pale skin that reddens so easily, even as zoro gets a little mean with his teeth around his nipples, even when zoro holds to that tiny waist, his large hands leaving circle marks when they tighten around his waist. his waist was so small, is still, and zoro thinks vindictively, she wonāt give it to him. she wonāt worship his body like zoro did.
he wonders, if sanji thinks of zoro when he fucks his new girl. he hopes sanji realises she wonāt be able to give what he couldāve, what he wouldāve, what he had been giving.
as long as heās the best heās ever had, zoro is okay, he thinks. or he will be, but he knows. he knows deep in his heart, that heās the best heās ever had. so he will be okay.
when? he doesnāt know. in the meantime he will keep filling the void with bodies, (he wondered if this was what it was for sanji too (he soon realised it wasnāt))
the best sanjiās ever had. zoroās sure thatās him. heāll be okay.
(maybe if he repeats it enough, it will be true)
#one piece#zosan#nina nesbittās best you ever had#is like one of the best break up songs#and also so so heartbreaking#anyway i just had some zosan thoughts and i donāt know if iāll ever develop it into a full fic#so i thought iād just write some rambles here#so that the zosan can get out of my brain and i can rest#roronoa zoro#sanji#zosan fic#my bad if there are spelling errors maybe iāll fix them later idk
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#this brought to you by the electric touch caskett fanvid that i havenāt stopped thinking about for weeks now#in which it is implied that the reason kateās heart needs to be ābrought back to lifeā is because of her motherās death#as opposed to a previous romantic heartbreak#and i am not even pretending to be normal about all that#this also applies to so many songs but i thought that extremely specific situation was a fun little glimpse into my unwell psyche :)#wkp*
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